Saturday, 26 November 2011

失明之前我想記得的任何事 what would I want to remember most if I were blind

前鎮子在學校跟鑫和Germaine提到了一首詩,同時也是個舞台劇曲目

In couple of weeks ago I introduced a poem which also was a track of a musical to Xin and Germaine in  studio


“失明之前我想記得的四十七件事”

The poem named "47 things that I would like to remember most before I lose my sight"


於是反問自己,身為一個使用視覺勝於其他感官的我
在一個即將要失明的前提之下,會急於記住並在回憶裡反覆品嘗的事物會是什麼???

Thus, I asked myself ..as a person who extremely rely on the sense of sight more than other sense like me..
what sort of thing would I like to remember most if I presumed that I was going to lose my sight


對我來說這將會是一個很有意思的假設
因為一旦失去了一部份的感知,那麼,那些必須依附這感覺,藉此使人取得對其的認知的事物在你的生活中將會失去部份意義

For me, this would become a meaningful hypothesis
As if losing a part of my five sense which represents that I will probably miss some essential meaning about some objects that must using a particular sense to observe... like music ~


就好比訪問貝多芬,他心目中的音樂是什麼
他聽不清他所譜寫的樂章,但是他仍然能藉由每個音符的走向去想像他的美麗樂章,只是於他,樂曲在”聽“這方面的實質意義已經失去了
也許說得太直接了些

for instance , if we still can investigate Beethoven now ,the question like "what is music, in your mind ?"    
he can't hear his beautiful music clearly , however he can imagine what would the track go on through every notes that he's composed ... just somehow, he still lose the important meaning of music ---listening  
perhaps I'm a bit too straightforward on writing loo...


我想失明無疑的對於一個畫畫的人來說也是個嚴肅的問題吧

but, what would I want to say is ~  there is no doubt that blind could be a serious problem for me, being an illustrator


就像詩裡說的
失明之後對於任何影像都只會有回憶,因為再也不會有新的視覺衝擊進入腦子裡了
但也許這樣說並不正確
因為人類仍然擁有無遠弗屆的想像力
只是,這些東西都會變成你自己的想像,而不是真正的他們

this poem also mentioned that everything's outline would base on your memory after you were blind, cos you won't have any chance to get any brand new visual impact further more ...
Yet, it's not quite fair to say so
because we still have a powerful and unlimited imagination within our mind..
nevertheless, those images would all come from our imagination ,not "real" them


我要說得是,這個聖誕節是時候好好的琢磨這個議題
閉上自己的眼睛,用記憶和其餘感覺去朔造任何我想記得的事情

Anyway, it's time for me to think over this topic during the following Christmas holidays
Closed my eyes, using my memory and other sense except sight to construct images of anything that I would like to remember most


任何一件值得我就算看不清楚仍然會反覆回味的事情

it's about anything that is worthy for me to remember also thinking over billion times even though I couldn't see clearly...

Friday, 25 November 2011

很大的挫折及更大的安慰

今天不知怎麼搞得,很多事情都不對盤了
這種情況就好像是
有人故意暗暗的把拼圖弄亂,然後很難在短時間拼湊出原本的樣貌這樣

打電話去DHL付關稅又再次碰壁,這到底是怎麼一回事阿????
所以我只好照著客服說的~去找他們的服務據點付現金了
但是,好景不常~無疑的,在晴朗美好的下午去到寧靜的Wapping應該是件開心的事的,
但是我迷了小路
找到DHL Express之後卻又不可祁門而入.....
這到底是怎麼一回事阿????
問了好幾個朋友,沒有人有相關經驗
如何是好??
於是呼我差點就要在地鐵站裡面對著對座的老外掉淚了~
當所有事情都不為妳效力的時候,多無助?????
何況在國外

其實任何事情都不是你們想的那麼簡單

因為沒有經歷過的人是永遠不會知道的

這是我學到的功課,永遠不可輕看別人遇到的困難~或許有時他遭遇的情況跟你類似,但是背後的因素糾葛絕對不比任何人少

下午跟台灣的好姊妹們用skype通了一次話,雖然說距離好遠好遠,但有人可以在這個情境之下聽我小小的抱怨幾句,心裡真的是舒坦很多~
在這之後我故作鎮定的忍住鼻涕和眼淚,在再次進地鐵前又撥了一次客服電話
這次客服員終於行行好了些,告訴我明天再打給他們
歐是嗎!!!希望明天一切順利,也希望英國人不要再次變掛了  

這樣,會讓很多外國人想哭的

難過之餘還是得繼續一整天的行程,畢竟被整成這樣的我還有半個11/25得過呢
下午約莫四點再次跟台灣的姊妹掏通上skype,我想最完美的厄運就是要發揮到最淋漓盡致才算吧~
之後,手機不知怎麼的滑出手掌心,重重的一摔簡直把心情帶至谷底

欸~所以現在是遇上了   轉   捩   點   了嗎???

歐是的,完全是的
由於昨天就和我的泰國朋友約好要一起去她家吃晚餐了
所以只好帶著沈重的心情赴了約

嘿~但是神奇的是
只是簡簡單單的聊聊生活,家人,朋友,課業,未來
吃吃我們各自推出的家鄉味
居然有療癒的效用~因為在這個冷漠城市還是有人真正關心你的

每個人呈獻的關懷方式不一
父母於我是比較嚴厲的,恨鐵不成鋼類型,所以他們的關心在事情的當下聽來格外刺耳,但是我仍然必須要說,一切都是因為他們關心我

朋友於我是比較給與充分同理的,也許是因為他們也知道這個年紀的女生大概再想些什麼吧~所以不用說太多,因為他們知道    不容易

我要說得是什麼呢~就是我只需要知道其實每個挫折的背後,都有這些關心同在
這就是最大的安慰了
其實也就真的沒什麼足以掛齒了


Saturday, 19 November 2011

good night , my acoustic palace

frist I must say that this city is definitely kinda noisy anyway
but I also believe that each city has it own particular voice ...
no matter how cracky it sounds like ...

sound of
ambulance ... alert ... laugh ... diverse language... mobile ring ... wind ...rain ...public transportation...
dot dot dot dot ..too much I mean

they all sound quite individual aren't they ?!
can u imagine that if they have a specific image just like different characters of human being  ...
how would they be ..well.. how will London look like  
maybe they would look pretty much similar with a glossy and sparkle crystal kinda bit transparent ... 
and London would be a huge palace which contain those acoustic treasure  

however unfortunately .. they don't

so I would not like just spent a weekend to record those invisible scene by my illustration...but  more time to complete this project progressively ....
seems quite exhausted though ... but I really want to try it on hereafter !!!
anyway just an inspiration which pops up a while at this silent night by accident ...

it'll come up as a little craft which records my life in this acoustic palace  

                                                                 晚安  我的聽覺宮殿  

Friday, 18 November 2011

a maze of language 語言迷宮

During these few weeks , lots of task started to occupy my schedule ... I felt myself nearly to suffocate as dealing those complicated stuffs... stress suddenly overwhelmed me controlled my sentiment without any portent...

Even worse is... I can't concentrate on anything.... what's going on with me???
actually even me not really sure what circumstance that I'm standing by right away...
I only knew that I do hard to understand others EN speaker as usual for sure ,besides trying to participate and fulfill every single task that our tutors gave to us by using a second language and different logic ... anyway I trap in a maze... a language maze...

today we have an etching workshop ... though I know that I supposed to look forward for this workshop in long time...yet I just like a strengthless puppet which controlled by an unknown doll master....
To be honest ,I didn't enjoy it ..  even though I attend this whole day long workshop as I did in previous time still...
one of reasons is our technician use too much professional vocabularies to introduce the process... I totally can understand that they must do that otherwise no one will get the point of how to run through each process ... yet somehow it would make me feel like I'm diving nearby the shore ... I can tell what happen on the beach generally... but I can't identify them really clear...
I'm not a person who really care about everything must be exactly what it is... but I do feel sick on always be inaccurate ....

the most obvious thing is... I know what they say generally yet if there's anyone who tears the sentence into separate part  ..then I probably can't tell them more over...

that's my biggest problem... and also is the one suffering me most...
I know I should do harder to learn EN...but I figure out that the existence of limit in language still there ... which is quite hard to overcome... till now

.......okay I would like to stop myself complaining

anyway~~~life still goes on, I should't always struggle in same trouble.... and although it still quite challenging .... As thinking in positive and active way , I still have chance to turn the situation back to good in the future...as I try hard to do my best in every single moment , such as writing an EN dairy as a practice like what I've done so far!!
does it makes sense!!?:)


Wednesday, 16 November 2011

看圖說故事



禮拜四stage 1的總評結束後,精疲力竭之際在往演講大廳的路上風景意外的美,撫慰人心阿


禮拜五緊鑼密鼓的網版課收穫豐碩,雖然說一開始老師講解時,因為連續幾天的疲勞而有聽沒有懂~但總而言之,好險我還是順利完成了~並且做了我夢寐以求的網版!!!夫覆何求:)


我們班來自俄羅斯的資優生塔緹安娜,她的作品真的是量多質高,並且又非常的認真學習踴躍發問,對我來說她的好學精神值得我再三省思學習


今天我和版畫課同組的艾登,貝絲,還有塔緹安娜一致認同說:做版畫就像進健身房一樣~想瘦身的朋友快點來學版畫歐~


有鑒於上禮拜沒能趕上bonfire煙火秀的小小遺憾,大家決定禮拜六晚上風塵僕僕趕去人擠人嚇死人的waterloo bridge看煙火,由於在這一早陪著朋友去找布樣的關係,所以這中間的空檔就只好看街頭藝人打發時間了~他可是一動也不動的歐~



最後的結論是:英國政府真的很明顯的看得出財政窘迫,煙火只施放了十分鐘,而且真的都只是基本款~花博和大道呈咖水!!!千真萬確~但是能在異鄉看煙火也算是人生中難忘且珍貴的回憶!!我是幸福且幸運的,應該感恩



晚上的咖哩大餐!!!!感謝Emily以及Shelly!!!!!超級好吃,超級幸福,感謝上帝我在倫敦有幸遇見最棒的家人




在冬天來臨之前,要緊緊抓住秋天的小尾巴~今天是國際學生美食趴踢!!!!!耶比~我做了可樂雞燉馬鈴薯歐~優呼






大家都手藝非凡,來這裡近四個月來第一次吃到飽到不能再飽

接下來就是一睹廬山真面目時間:




將啦~英國的布店就是那麼夢幻歐!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!不過貴松松歐


還有我的網印作品~超級滿意的,雖然對版沒對很準,但是失誤總有失誤的美:))

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

羅密歐與茱莉葉小插曲

關於我們的新作業羅密歐與茱莉葉
我發覺自己竟然有點迷失在在課堂之中了
不只是大堂討論課如此,小組討論時更甚
特別是在當我開口問起某些個單字時,同學們臉上漾起的詫異以及播下問題後接踵而至的寂靜
再再讓我體會到~孤立感真正的意義何在

並不是我不懂他們再說什麼,也不是我不懂的表達自己,更不是我無法理解他們的思維
而是當這些能力都具備的同時卻仍然感受到迷失,以及困惑
這正是孤立感真正的內涵

然而這種尷尬的氛維並未持續很久,反而熱絡了起來
豁然間明白到,當每個人專著於一件事情,或者正在思考實所呈現出的慣性小動作及表情大相逕庭~
而那些驚訝或者困惑我為何不懂的表情,也許都是他們的反射習慣
阿,果然還是我太敏感阿
總之又是一番曲折的心境轉換歷程

我想說得是,問 ; 真的沒什麼大不了的,只要我有禮貌,並且不以為恥就一切都搞定
歐當然,絕對不要當一個無聲的人~要不然繳那麼多學費能幹嘛呢?
雖然說學習方式百百種,但是發問會是一個最有價值且能讓你快速成長的方式

畢竟事實證明,適時勇敢的表達自己和發問真的可以為你迎來許多機會


About our new project :Romeo & Juliet...
I figured that myself becoming a bit lost in class...
not only during the time as we having a whole class discussion but also in small group brainstorming time
especially when I asked a word which I really had no ideal to deal with ...n our group members' surprising expression ... they just stared at me and silence suddenly came up ,overwhelming our group block

from that time on.. I finally realized what is real isolate about... it's not just an emotion to feel not at home..it almost can be interpreted as much more deep yet negative inner feeling though
even though I've already had an ability to talk n communicate with others or even more to understand their  general thought ... still, feeling lost and confusing
that's real isolate about.......

However , that awkward circumstance was not keeping such long instead started turning even more better than before...
the question about why those confused n surprising facial expressions would appear on their faces suddenly had a cure ...
oh ... maybe it all cos they was considering how to clarify those meaning to me so that they tends to be looked a bit different as usual....cos everyone got their own individual expression n sort of unique behavior as they quite concentrated on sth or thinking quite hard..
oh it's definitely my bad..I'm too sensitive loo
yea... quite a tortuous emotional switching kkk

anyway ...asking is not really a big deal , ...as I asked others with an appropriate manner, besides don't feel shame to ask .... do not hide yourself on the back and pretend as a voiceless guy.. even though I still quite shy but I do totally agree that asking is not an only way to learn yet it's indeed a worthiest way for me to promote myself faster ...

Be brave to ask and express yourself~otherwise you will lost lots of opportunity ...it's ture

Friday, 4 November 2011

小記

昨天的group crit裡被老師狠狠地在眾多同學面前點出錯誤來
有點不好受,但是我知道一切都是為了我好~
其實老師大可不必說這麼白的!!!
尤其對於一個英文不算頂好的外國學生來說,其實也毋需如此熱心出手相救 ; 畢竟一個人既然有膽識出國念書,那麼他就應該事先充分明白自己所處的現實環境,或者是做好萬全準備,對自己的決定負起全責~
但是Luise她沒有~我很開心在英國這個遙遠且陌生的國家能遇到這麼一位好老師
雖然說我果真是因為搞錯老師的用意,而讓她感到頭痛(我想她應該是生氣了)~
但是她昨天告訴我和鑫的那翻話,以及她的貼心我一輩子都不會忘記
Lu說:她也是個外國人(她來自奧地利),她也能充分瞭解到一個外國人的難處,尤其英文尚且只是我們的第二語言~她會試著講得更為清楚並且放慢速度,但是我們既然做了來國外學習的決定,那就更有必要認真學習,不懂就要不恥下問,otherwise  it could be a waste for u to come far from a distance and pay lots of fee for studying abroad  !!!what a shame isn't it?!!

繞了半個地球,不息貸款學習的決定是對的~
不只是遇到了好老師,也不只是找到了自己屬意的學習環境,更不僅只是找到了一群志同道合的朋友而已...
而是我知道來到這個自己甘願負債,花費十三個小時到達的國家裡的目的,不是為了要贏得更多讚美和掌聲,而是為了那些真誠且真正能推著我成長為未來養分的建議以及教訓

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

生日禮物

約莫中午的時間點,我被一陣唐突且劇烈的敲擊聲嚇了一跳~~原來是有人再敲我們家大門阿
而這個敲擊聲響正暗示著我的留學生涯進入了一個重要的轉淚點,那就是:我終於可以不再因為簽證過得心驚膽戰了!!!!!!多美妙:))


沒錯沒錯,簽證:到手!!!!


總之,這將會是這輩子過過最難忘且最棒的生日了~不只是因為時差關係賺到了有史以來最長的生日時數:32小時,並且終於收到在英國最重要的留學生身分證!!!!


幸福:滿分!!!!!
謝謝我最親愛的上帝~揪咪


Around this noon ,I was shocked by an abrupt n strong beating sound of knocking our front door... 
Yet , that became a turning point of my life for studying oversea , cos from that time on , I finally can live my life without worry whether I can pass my visa application or not ... how cheerful this news is


YES  VISA ID CARD  ,   GET !!!!!!!

anyway , the BEST and UNFORGETTABLE birthday ever I'm not only having a 32 hours (plus taiwan time) birthday but also received the most important thing : my self-provement permit in UK ..!

HAPPINESS , GET !!!!!!!

Give thanks to my dearest LORD :))




昨天和同學們完成了一趟牛津冒險之旅,也同時在Pitt River博物館上了充實的一堂課!!!!
果不其然,古城的震撼力不容小覷~我都要覺得自己已經到了完全愛上這裡無法自拔的地步了!!!道地優雅的英式建築配上楓葉小徑!!!!!
總之一言難盡,請看照片吧


Yesterday me n my classmates made a fabulous exploration in Oxford after finished doing observation drawing inside Pitt River museum  ...
then I totally fall in love with this historically ancient town ( n the museum as well )..it's elegant , absolute British style constructions and those stunning, leaves-fallen alleys ... It's quite hard to write down those scene one by one though , but I surely took lots of pics here ~ just have a look loo:))







Pitt River 博物館,她的收藏展品非常多樣,大至恐龍化石、動物標本,小至樂器面具,應有盡有!!! 非常推薦,並且也是免門票的              


Pitt River museum , it contains diverse sorts of exhibit from dinosaur's fossil and animal's specimens to mask or instrument ...etc     quite nice besides it's free for academic  





我非常好奇那扇門背後會有什麼,可能會是個魔法學院歐!!不過可惜的是終究是沒能來的及進去一探究竟

I really curious about what would it look like behind this entrance ..maybe there will have a magic school inside there kkk still it was a waste on having no time to observe it..   




                                        enjoy it
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                                            to be continued...